sorry closing the site

Designing my new website. This blog is closing to the public soon sorry.

luck in the date scene

Well, after the disastrous coffee date. I finally found a man who is cute, smart, great business savy bullshitter, who owns his own place, athletic ice hockey player and above all #1 concern....normal/no drama. He does have pretty good biceps but he doesn't kiss them. Thank god.

I guess things do come to those who wait. Not to settle for losers.

Gifts from his b-trips, endless kisses and opening my door every single time .holding my hand during the kings game at the rink... I am not complaining.
Even put gas in my car...

He knows difference of J-food and Thai food are not the same. He likes my cooking, no complains. and tolerates my corky self.

keeper...def.... keeper (*^ _ ^*) yay!!!!!! let's see how long it will last...

Coffee date gone WAY WRONG!!!

To pass my time of boredom, I recently went online again to find interesting people to meet. Well, let me tell you about the coffee date today.

The guy was white Caucasian, a haole 6ft4. He looked like ... not so good in picture,but I said "Hey, what the hell! It's only a coffee date?"

So I went to the coffee shop not expecting anything but to see a buff/ FAT guy in front of S-bucks. He.... did not look anything like his picture.

To be exact he look 3x wider than his picture. Then he had the most annoying voice. That sounds JUST WRONG!!! LOL He was trying to make all these jokes and he just sounded like a efing jerk. NO WONDER HE HAS BEEN ONLINE for such a long time.

The thing is he actually thought he was HOT. Now I've known coffee dates to be some what civil and just a friendly chat to say hello and find a little about each other.

The Haole was SO into himself, he was kissing his biceps in front of me then showing off his chest and checking it out, then stretched to show his beer belly.

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! YUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! WTF!

WHAT A EFING IDIOT!!!:::!""""!"!"!"#IR:OIETgpoitesp9fd tewghrv aeiuhd

The coffee date lasted 20 min. He said maybe we should go somewhere another time...

Trying to be nice I said "yah.... maybe... nice meeting you......(went into my car and yelled) NOT!!!!"

EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. I was so upset I called my sis, my GF, talked to my neighbors next door, my other friend and the other potential date.

I should write/draw a book. The art of online dating... animated...

The haole was actually kissing his efing biceps in front of me MORE THAN ONCE.
SO SO WRONG....

OK! STAY OPTIMISTIC
Next is a Buenos Aires guy.... let's hope to god he's at least a little better than the haole.

goodnight.

best time of my life at vegas

My sista and Best friend and I went to Vegas last weekend. Need I say more. Best time eva.

Pool parties with total strangers, drinking from morning til... well forever.

Gamble with funny comical asian old hawaiians. Life was wonderful.


gotta go BACK..... SOON!!!

today was a beautiful day

I baked at the beach today. I saw a sea lion and two dolphins. Pretty awesome.

Joining online dating again was a mistake. I hate it. Is it just me? or I just don't find any of them attractive. The only guy I thought was good looking was the guy from POF site. but that went sour a month ago... I miss the sexy guy, what can I say but I am not one to pursue if the other party's not that interested. Dude, I will not chase, never did and never will. I was always one to BE chased. so that's that. I will not beg either.

I give up.

I really have to find another outlet for meeting new people.

I don't know...what to do... Why the hell am I wasting time on this? Passing the time looking at gross fat men or asian gorilla looking men..???
Trying to find someone decent???


I probably need to get laid. LOL.

Back to square one...

I was trying to sleep

Labor day weekend.
Friday I came home from work and just relaxed.
Saturday I just vegetated at the beach alone with my ipod and my bikini watching the life guard's sexy body.
Then at night:
I babysat my nephew and niece...and got so bored I joined M.com to see what online dating service has to offer me this time and disappointed with getting hits after hits of just gross looking men.
Today:
I went to the beach today for my bro in law's 20th beach volleyball tourney in MBeach. There were about 70+ people, mostly all white people with few exceptions. All nice and very Socal. Unfortunately, sun never came out but it was fun with the fam and friends gathered for this big event. The margarita was strong though.. I had fun watching and just relaxing at the beach.

Lately:
I've been so busy with work that I forgot what "fun" was. Working and trying to find furniture for my new apartment takes most of my time these days. At night I fall asleep on my desk sometimes reading emails. I still have to send out newsletter to my dear friends, but have no energy or motivation to write interesting subjects... I always think of something to say as usual but just not motivated enough yet.

My sister asked what I'm doing to meet new people meaning the opposite sex... Well, not much... maybe down to zero... unless a good catch comes my way somewhere somehow...

With all that in mind while gray hairs increase...I was having trouble to sleep tonight... then right when I was just about to go to sleep... someone calls...a blocked caller. I answered and no answer.... I said hello maybe 5 times then hung up... My curiosity of who it might of been made me fully awake... unable to sleep... damn it... so much for sweet dreams...

...

So sad so young...

I just heard that my sis's bestfriend's brother passed in his sleep..at 29... It makes me sad and really disturbed. He was so young... I feel my lungs squeeze like when you have a broken heart... suffocation... I pray for his rebirth and hope in his next life he will truly be able to live happy long life.

Life is so precious. I have to get out of my cob web and feel free from the past. So I don't regret life and be able to finally live to the fullest... You never know what will happen next... you really don't...

My first guest for sleep over in my new apartment...

My niece Hana called on my cel to ask if she could come over for sleep over at "auntie m's" house. Hana (6 years old) and I went to baskin robbins tonight to eat her favorite dessert "mint chocolate chip" ice cream and then went to Macy's home to test out the different beds together to see which is good. The sales guy said simmons is the best they have. I kinda liked serta too but oh well.
Then we came back to watch bootleg of "Nanny McPhee 2" at home and now Hana is sound asleep next to me. My first sleep over guest Miss lil lady Hana. An angel next to me while I sleep, what a wonderful world.

I have a bug in my tummy

I ache in my tummy. Doc says to take pepto and gatorade. Why is it that I take care of people but when I am in pain no one is here to help me... sigh...

Tonight was...

interesting...

I went to the B clan house to do laundry. My bro in law and I watched the pre-game and ate thai food. We had a good time. I stuffed my face so much to the point I am too full to go to sleep. I feel the food is up to my throat.

My friend is going through a really ugly break up. Oh... it just does not look good... I try not to get in too deep. I really can't help her... I can only listen...

Whenever I have friends in pain, I start to analysis my life and surroundings and how I feel lately.

I am pretty good. I am living by the beach where I can literally hear crashing waves from my window. I actually like my job and the people there which is VERY rare. I am close to my family. My neighbors are great. I try not to regret anything that happened in the past and try to move on. No more stalking emails... tranquility surrounds me.
I went to see soccer and my friend is giving me her bicycle soon. and I finally have new sunglasses...

If I can think of one thing, I regret that I didn't give a particular person a chance to reclaim his side of the story. I regret that I lost my temper over a stupid conversation.
For some reason, this man keeps popping in my head lately... like it's undone. There is still something unfinished with him. It feels so weird. I can't get him out...of my mind... maybe it is just a delusion my heart plays on me.
maybe I just miss the grin and cuddling... who knows...

I come home to watch the sunset

Everyday after work, I feel my stress uplifted by the beauty of the sunset. I walked/jogged on the beach afterwards watching the sun slowly come down into the blue ocean. Everyone's in hawaii right now... but it's ok... I have the beach too...

and....

There was a beautiful asian well fit body flaunting his upper torso jogging in front of me, too....

i.....

I LOVE THE BEACH!

OH YEAH...

I love watching sweaty men run around in front of me LOL

Well, you guessed it. I went to the chivas soccer game. It was... so so. My GF N and I had lots of fun watching them warm up in front of us. Pretty good seats. While I meant by watching warm ups were .... N and I loved watching them stretch and really showing off their booties in front of us.
OMG, I love soccer.
It's good they don't have any padding like football.LOL
My GF N like # 23... she said he's yummy!!!

I say.... ehh....
David Villa looks betta.

5th day... loving it!

So, I have been in my new apartment for 5 days and just loving the peace and quiet with the waves of the ocean. My friend came to have a drink at my house and she loved it as well! We brought cups with wine at the beach and watched the sunset. It was so nice and tranquil.

My neighbors are pretty cool. My landlord is awesome and friendly.He gave me and my friend a beer again. I definitely have to get him some J-food or something.
I could hear my neighbor's music sometimes but it's OK. I just hope I don't hear anything else ha ha.

Thinking to go back online again... but I don't know...have not found myself having a good experience expect one man who is unfortunately gone to Japan for a rock concert. I am also trying to find a different way to meet new people, which is hard...I wish I can meet people who are intellectual and have goals in life like I do. Not flimsy and indecisive. No baggage and doesn't talk so much about the last GF and the past. I hope I meet someone who is living the now and the future.
That would be nice for once.
It's so boring to go on a date and the date is talking about the EX, too redundant. I have understood that if any guys says they are a romantic ... they aren't...
and I don't have time to be mothering emotionally unstable souls. I need to be loved and receive 100% attention. I deserve it, cuz I am a damn good woman with the full package, LOL!

So, I love where I am at here in my new address. I could walk on the beach everyday. watch the sun set in pink and orange. Walk to cute shops and restaurants and even walk to the pier if I wanted. I Just feel relaxed when I get home. Saturday, it's the Chivas vs Seattle soccer game which I have been looking forward to see live!
Maybe my bro can help me get a new mattress because the one I bought at ikea is making my lower back hurt. I hope i can return it.

Overall, it's all good. no nightmares. no stalkers.

So I am here..

I finally have moved into my new apartment. I hear the ocean waves from my window. Yes, I actually hear and see the ocean from my window.

My landlord thought I was 26. I am glad my Asian genes have been well kept. My new neighbor Mr. R, landlord MR. L, sis, niece, and nephew all went to the beach together today. It was a beautiful day and we just walk two min. walk two min to go back. I swam with the kids. My landlord gave me a beer, he happens to be an acquaintance of my bro in law from beach volleyball, so it's all good.

So, I did find the perfect apartment. My high school friend K also gave me 4 tickets to the soccer game next Saturday. Chivas vs Seattle I think. That's just awesome. My GF N is coming with me. The other two prob.. my co worker...

Wow, I guess I did get what I set out to from half a year ago. Now I just have to find some good looking male candidates to spend quality time with. LOL.

School is finally over so I will be working out at the beach again. Just peachy..

Life is good.... life is good...

August 6

I woke up that 5:30am today. I had a nightmare. Sometimes I feel so insecure. I feel so unaccomplished. I ask frequently.."what happened?" "what did you do to your life?" "why did you leave it behind?" "what is it that you want in life?"

Sometimes I can't believe at myself leaving my life of music behind and pursuing a life that might not bloom or flourish... I mean look at me right now... with an admin job to pay the bills, going to school night time but not really learning anything from it as I like. Not getting a creative job and making twice or three time less than when I was in Japan...

The fact of being able to live alone by the beach and being close to family is probably the only good thing going.

I am disappointed in where I am in life. Even the men I date are... how can I put it, not intellectually compatible. None of them motivate me enough to stay interested.
The fact of telling myself "This time I am starting from scratch ground zero so things can't get any worse" is almost like a broken record.

I really hope that I will be able to step forward by this move. Leave the past behind and really move on with my life.

I should put a limit on my career path.. like if I don't succeed as a creative graphic designer by two-three years... I should go back to Japan and return to music business.
or like if I don't find a person to share my life with in 2-3 years... f*** the dream of making family...just have boy toys to play with.

Why so pessimistic? I guess it's frustration of not making money like I used to... Still bitter about disrespect. Wearing a suit to work... Having a 9-5 job... wearing a plastic mask everyday so I don't show face.. not being who I am...

oh well... from next week I will just have to contemplate about life watching the ocean from my window. or just walk to the beach I guess... I already bought me some red wine to compliment the mood. I guess I did get what I want. Being closer to my sis.. and a pad at the beach...Being able to live as a regular girl with hope... now I just have to work on like condiments such as boyfriends... yes with a "s".

and lastly not be so bored with life...

finals this week.

I am just busy busy busy. Finishing up final exams for school, cleaning my apartment before I move in. Working at the job staffing co. while trying to do the website. Now I am teaching an intern from Japan for 4wks... yeah.... I can't wait til' I am totally situated in my new home. I also might go out on Thurs with my gf A for some green drinks.
plus that dating here and there when time permits me to do so.

I am overall happy though. I can't complain. I get to hear sounds of the oceans waves from my window. Actually you can see the ocean from my window. So... yeah... life is good.

Last week I went on a dinner date. It was a pleasant date full of laughs. Though I have no interest in getting serious and the other party might be thinking otherwise. He came in a suit... looked good... but too bad I am not physically that attracted to him. He did tickle my heart with his thoughtful words. Maybe it's a combination of both physical and emotional that will grow in time. I don't know...

The greatest part was that we had a great conversation and he wasn't looking at me like bait.

He knows how to treat a j woman, not like others. Libra year of the sheep 40 years old... astrologically the worst combination for my sign. oh well....

I'm excited and scared

I got my keys to my new apartment by the beach. I need to go measure tomorrow and put in some boxes.
Oh my god, I have a place of my own now... wow...

Moving.. next week

My dream to live walking distance to the beach is almost complete.
Next week I will sign a contract for a tiny loft "1" block away from the beach.
I can also walk to trader joe's, coffee shops, restaurants, yoga, bristol farm, cute shops and etc.

It's even pet friendly if I want a pet.

Then when I have enough money, I am going to buy my self a bicycle to cruise on beach walk.

I can even see the ocean from my windows for less than 1000 mo. I guess some things are good.

Finally on my own... yay!!!

Trying to move on.

I went to Venice beach today. Trying to feel the vibe if I like to live there.
Well, I guess I am not ready yet to venture out.
I also looked for a new pair of shades because I had left it behind...I wish I could get it back...
It's hard to find shades that I like.
it's even harder to find a watch with mickey mouse in it.
I am kind of disappointed that it was not sent back to me.

I think I'll be moving into my new place next month in RB. If things goes well I'll be one block away from the beach in a tiny studio w/ a loft. Enough to fit me and only me.

yah,
My first goal I made to myself will be accomplished.

work work work so I don't feel

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Consultants at work were specialists not only for work. The ladies gave me tutorials of how to catch the right fish.
1. Never say you know how to cook.
2. Never say you know how to massage.
3. Never say you know how to clean.
4. Always have the fish pay for you cuz' you are a divine delicacy from the exquisite and rich high quality J islands.
Because, once you do any of the above the fish will make you bait not mate.

I wished I knew them a little earlier...hard lessons learned...I am an exotic delicacy that should not be easily caught...